The Dating Game....

Who ever went on the first date?

This is a sore subject for me, "dating". I have NO luck with it, and I hate it. But do I date? yes, and do I fail? Yes. Do I get torn from the inside out and feel like I am never going to find the right one that God has put on this earth for me, so on and so on!?!?!?! cam I get a YES PLEASE!? YES!

I have read the books, ya know, the one that all my friends said, HEY read this. "I kissed dating GOODBYE" And did I follow, HA! Im was a "grown up", 19 and a freshmen in college, lets date! Again, someone is laughing at me right now.

I am a WORRY WORT! I worry non stop, about life, death, and the pursuit of happiness. I see myself as the girl who will die happy, but die with a million cats (in a CLEAN house) and have cookies, and raisins for the sweet neighborhood kids who will visit me. OR, I will still be nannying until the day I fall over and break a hip, to the sweet children's children when they all get older. That or I will die. But thats another subject for another time that also somewhat scares me.

My friends, they are all getting older (as am I) and getting married, and some are now starting their families!....HOLD THAT! Were we not just playing doll house?....Yes, having babies. My best friend, who knows me inside and out is already talking baby. Is she married, yes, and HAPPY. To a man who is perfect, the man God intended for her to be with until death do them part. So baby talk, I love it, but I would love to be talking it too.....Ok ok, so not really. I am no where CLOSE to that YET. But its still a wonderful thought.....right?

I believe I got off track....Dating? Why? how? and what for? Because we are all in the hunt for a mate? So here is my thought....We, those of us who are to marry, should be put on this earth with a homing device, and when it comes time for us to marry, which ever age God had planned out, they should start to work....A on switch should be switched, by God, and we are able to "home in" to our "mate".....eh!??!?!?! Good I idea I know! I plan on seeing what the Boss says about that soon. Hahaha. ooh, I can only dream....right?

PRAY

Yeah, yeah, I know (why are you not praying?) Because I have this stupid head that says, "Oh your a good girl, you can relax on the praying" HA! You cant pray to much!! So yes, I need to Pray, pray, pray PRAY! And pray every day, for my family and friends, and for God to lead me in the path that he has chosen for me. I need to OPEN MY EYES TO HIM, let Him LEAD! That song comes to mind, "Jesus take the wheel" Well, I better do it, let Him have it. Only then will my life be fulfilled, and truly Blessed by Him. Until then, well that whole dating thing will keep happening and not working.

Why have I jabbed on and on? This is a reminder to me, to not be so foolish. I am 23, why am I still so foolish!??!?! A reminder to Pray, and not stop even after he Blesses me with something, which is often, I truly have lived a very Blessed life, and I think he is starting to hold back those Blessings because I have truly taken them for granted.

So, here is to Praying EVERYDAY! attending mass, even signing up for Adoration!? (I think I should start this) What do you think? And saying the rosary as much as possible. I must start living a better and healthy Catholic life! I preach that I am CATHOLIC! and I will ALWAYS BE CATHOLIC! Well, I need to grow up and start acting like one. I have been given these wonderful Saints, and prayers to live by and do each day and I forget.... Short term memory.

There is someone out there that I strive to be like. I look at her every day and think "This is what I have dreamed for, this life, and to be able to have these blessings, and faith like you have" So now, I need to start doing the wonderful things you do, that God has blessed you with so many blessings, because you follow him, and let him truly "Take the wheel"

And that whole "dating" thing...Yeah, Im done. When the time is right, and I am truly ready, the man that God has planned will fall in my lap, but until then, I will work on getting my act together, and living my life in a way that I have yet to live it.