Sibling love!

The first image is of my brother and me a few days ago, yes its kinda blurry. And then the other image is of us about 3 years ago. Amazing how much we all change in just a few years, eh?

Siblings, we fight, we argue, we bully, we snap at each other, we pick, pick, PICK, and in the end we still love each other......Right!??!

My brother and I are pretty close for a brother sister pair. I am older by two years, and am not cool what so ever. He is Mr. popular, smart, good looking one. So really, we shouldnt get along. But we DO! And I LOVE IT! now, ok, its not all lovely dovey all the time. We still fight, sometimes we have our slam down fighting matches (no hitting no worries) But we forgive and FORGET! We move on.

What has got me on this hype about my awesome brother, is I asked him this weekend (after he let me hang out with him all weekend with his Frat brothers) I felt sooo COOL! I asked him if during the school year, we could have coffee every week. Just whenever we were free, but to make sure we had a SIBLING day. He said YES! he loved the idea, said it would be good for us to spend some time together over coffee and just catch up on our week. I am so excited about it. It will be nice to be able to stay close to someone who means a lot to me.

This week will be busy!

Sweet Words

It has been a very stressful, sad, and happy week for many of us. My moods go up and down with all the different things I hear about family and friends, and for other reasons. There has been many tears shed in this house, happy and sad ones. All I can do is keep praying for those who are still very sick. But I am dreading "THAT" phone call.


I thought I would share one of my favorite songs and also a very favorite Bible Story.

Canaan Bond

Sarah, take me by my arm
Tomorrow we are Canaan bound
Where westward sails the golden sun
And Hebron's hills are amber crowned

So bid your troubled heart be still
The grass, they say, is soft and green
The trees are tall and honey-filled
So, Sarah, come and walk with me

Like the stars across the heavens flung
Like water in the desert sprung
Like the grains of sand, our many sons
Oh, Sarah, fair and barren one
Come to Canaan, come

I trembled at the voice of God
A voice of love and thunder deep
With love He means to save us all
And Love has chosen you and me

Long after we are dead and gone
A thousand years our tale be sung
How faith compelled and bore us on
How barren Sarah bore a son
So come to Canaan, come

Where westward sails the golden sun
And Hebron's hills are amber crowned
Oh, Sarah, take me by my arm
Tomorrow we are Canaan bound

GOING TO THE CHAPEL......

.........To Pray

What a DAY! Went and got miss H. and we went out to lunch, which was bad. I had my FAVORITE Italian Club sandwich which had spoiled roast beef on it, so Im battling the icky feeling tummy at the moment. Anywhoo.... Then we went and looked at paint and I picked out some different colors to ponder over for my room. We had a fun day! Then we woke...dare I say your nick name?...Nah, I will be nice. We woke Mr. C.G. up and he showed us how to make rosary's. That was a load of fun! Miss H. laughed the whole time. I wish I was able to laugh at everything like she does. She is such a happy bubbly person, she brings lots of Joy to the day.....and LOTS of questions! Which is cool too.

So then I tossed the baby around and left. It was a pretty busy day if you ask me. Called the lil bro and we went and worked out. BEST work out in months! I pushed myself hard this time. Partly because Daniel is in such good shape and I am NOT! Gaining weight and losing muscle is no fun! But I am starting to put it back on....hopefully, and with the help of the Bro! Who knew chicken legs would turn into Mr. Buff himself!? I didnt. Its weird though, to look at your little brother and so macho macho man! YIKES!

Tomorrow is another fun filled day. Most of it spent in the sun for SWIM TEAM!!! YAY!!!! And then hanging out of My bestes friend ever.....haha I sound so high school. Then the gym, AGAIN!

Just a few things PLEASE. Would all of you who read this (which is only two people...if any) keep my Uncle Waldo, my moms eldest brother, and closest in your prayers, he is very sick and in the hospital. From what I know and understand, which is not much, he is going fast, and will not be around much longer. I know this is hard on my mom because she has taken care of him for so long now, and I dont really know how to help her in this time. Also another person is a old friend of mine from highschool, her younger sister was driving home from Church yesterday and pulled onto Saundersville RD and was hit on the passengers side, which was then pushed into the drives side and then wrapped around a pole. She is in Vanderbilts ICU and has a lot of internal bleeding. All they can do right now is watch her and hope that she heals some on her own so they can do surgery. She is bleeding so much they can not open her up. Also her family as well. I dont know what its like, but I do know it has to be very hard to have a child hurt so badly and you can not do anything to help them.

Geez, life is just weird right now I feel like. To much is going on.

RANTING!!

Yep! its time to rant! And on a SUNDAY TOO!? Yes, on a Sunday, and about BEING CATHOLIC.

I went out of town this weekend to the highland games in North Carolina, they were awesome as always, and Daniel did ok. I am most likely going to buck up and compete this fall because my competition needs to be PUT IN HIS PLACE! (no im not being mean, just playing fair;-) So yeah, back to the competing scene. Cant let that guy get a big head.

So, Saturday was all fun and dandy, saw all my good friends, and got sun burnt, had a gross dinner in a "whole in the wall" place and breathed clean mountain air. Then, slept.

Sunday morning....Now I am NOT a morning person when it comes to weekends. And when I am out of town I DO NOT sleep. If its not my bed I most likely will not sleep and if I do its a lot of tossing and turning and waking up built upright in the bed wondering where I am.....OK to the POINT. So Church, dad found church, and we went. We almost did not find the place it was so well HIDDEN. Not a huge catholic faith in the Mountains of NC I guess.

Here comes the church...As we pull in I say "It looks like a wood house......ugh! Bad right? For me to look at a place of worship, none the less of my OWN FAITH and go UGH!? Well...It did NOT look like a church. Yes, I know I am weird, I like my tall steeple, and old church feel. So we walk in, seems strange, yeah its not OUR CHURCH, so of course its strange, I go straight to the restroom and the rest of the family goes to find seats. So as I walk towards the church and search for the holy water I take it all in. First of all the holy water is in a huge swimming pool with a water fall thing, not really a water fall. You practically have to get on the floor just to reach your hand in, and when you do you pretty much wash your hand in the water and soak your whole front....So I am BLESSED with LOTS of holy water....Am I safe? So I walk in and find the family and sit down, and look around......

THE RANT PART!

WHEN DID CHURCH'S START LOOKING LIKE HEY AND TOBACCO BARNS!?!?!?!?!?!?! AND WHEN DID KNEELING BECOME OBSOLETE!?!?!?!?!? IT is the HOST! The body and BLOOD of Jesus Christ! Its the least we can do to KNEEL during such a holy moment while they are being BLESSED! but noooo, lets stand/SIT during this part. OH and dont forget im sitting in a chair, A CHAIR! a NICE comfy chair with soft cushions and LOTS of room....HELLO where are the PEWS!? Jesus did not die on a cushioned back cross, with soft nails. And the Barn feel.....WHAT!? Ok, here is where I was a ltttttllleeee mad about....The host! ITS THE BLESSED HOST! And they are pretty much tossing it around, not handling it with CARE! (Im talking about when they take it out and put it back in the tabernacle) I almost got up and walked over and said pardon me, but lets try and NOT DROP IT. Oh, and the tabernacle, when did we start putting them in the closet!? UGH!!!!! Can you see I am a little upset. I feel like I did not go to church today.

Maybe I was raised in to conservative of a church. Some how I HIGHLY DOUBT it. All the church's here in the Nashville area (minus a few and I wont name the church's) are very conservative in the saying of mass, and the handling of the host and the wine. And when you enter our churches you feel like you are AT CHURCH! That the holy spirit is TRULY there! Not so much today and at other places I have traveled to. Why is that? Why are they becoming to modern and...can I say it? liberal?????

Im saying the rosary tonight, in hopes that I will feel better about this Sunday, I shouldn't be so grumpy, but it just bums me, that churches are not like the ones back home.

Whoda Thunk it!?

Well, it looks like they did!

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He means the WORLD to me!

Me and my daddy! My protector and provider! I LOVE MY DADDY!

Its hard to watch your parents get older though. He needs knee replacement and I keep BEGGING him to get it done so we can go on a wilderness camping trip before my knees give out! haha. His body just seemed to get older all of a sudden, yet his mind and soul are still 25.

Those of you who are still young and silly ;-) cherish EVERY moment you have with your parents! Because when you get to my age you realize how much they truly mean to you!

The Dating Game....

Who ever went on the first date?

This is a sore subject for me, "dating". I have NO luck with it, and I hate it. But do I date? yes, and do I fail? Yes. Do I get torn from the inside out and feel like I am never going to find the right one that God has put on this earth for me, so on and so on!?!?!?! cam I get a YES PLEASE!? YES!

I have read the books, ya know, the one that all my friends said, HEY read this. "I kissed dating GOODBYE" And did I follow, HA! Im was a "grown up", 19 and a freshmen in college, lets date! Again, someone is laughing at me right now.

I am a WORRY WORT! I worry non stop, about life, death, and the pursuit of happiness. I see myself as the girl who will die happy, but die with a million cats (in a CLEAN house) and have cookies, and raisins for the sweet neighborhood kids who will visit me. OR, I will still be nannying until the day I fall over and break a hip, to the sweet children's children when they all get older. That or I will die. But thats another subject for another time that also somewhat scares me.

My friends, they are all getting older (as am I) and getting married, and some are now starting their families!....HOLD THAT! Were we not just playing doll house?....Yes, having babies. My best friend, who knows me inside and out is already talking baby. Is she married, yes, and HAPPY. To a man who is perfect, the man God intended for her to be with until death do them part. So baby talk, I love it, but I would love to be talking it too.....Ok ok, so not really. I am no where CLOSE to that YET. But its still a wonderful thought.....right?

I believe I got off track....Dating? Why? how? and what for? Because we are all in the hunt for a mate? So here is my thought....We, those of us who are to marry, should be put on this earth with a homing device, and when it comes time for us to marry, which ever age God had planned out, they should start to work....A on switch should be switched, by God, and we are able to "home in" to our "mate".....eh!??!?!?! Good I idea I know! I plan on seeing what the Boss says about that soon. Hahaha. ooh, I can only dream....right?

PRAY

Yeah, yeah, I know (why are you not praying?) Because I have this stupid head that says, "Oh your a good girl, you can relax on the praying" HA! You cant pray to much!! So yes, I need to Pray, pray, pray PRAY! And pray every day, for my family and friends, and for God to lead me in the path that he has chosen for me. I need to OPEN MY EYES TO HIM, let Him LEAD! That song comes to mind, "Jesus take the wheel" Well, I better do it, let Him have it. Only then will my life be fulfilled, and truly Blessed by Him. Until then, well that whole dating thing will keep happening and not working.

Why have I jabbed on and on? This is a reminder to me, to not be so foolish. I am 23, why am I still so foolish!??!?! A reminder to Pray, and not stop even after he Blesses me with something, which is often, I truly have lived a very Blessed life, and I think he is starting to hold back those Blessings because I have truly taken them for granted.

So, here is to Praying EVERYDAY! attending mass, even signing up for Adoration!? (I think I should start this) What do you think? And saying the rosary as much as possible. I must start living a better and healthy Catholic life! I preach that I am CATHOLIC! and I will ALWAYS BE CATHOLIC! Well, I need to grow up and start acting like one. I have been given these wonderful Saints, and prayers to live by and do each day and I forget.... Short term memory.

There is someone out there that I strive to be like. I look at her every day and think "This is what I have dreamed for, this life, and to be able to have these blessings, and faith like you have" So now, I need to start doing the wonderful things you do, that God has blessed you with so many blessings, because you follow him, and let him truly "Take the wheel"

And that whole "dating" thing...Yeah, Im done. When the time is right, and I am truly ready, the man that God has planned will fall in my lap, but until then, I will work on getting my act together, and living my life in a way that I have yet to live it.